It was Sunday Dec 3, 1995, I was at a private party in a Mexican Restaurant and I remember that the next day was the first day of my new diet. But this time it was going to be different. I was going to stick with it and finally lose the weight. I was the heaviest I had ever been in my life. I didn’t tell anyone I was starting a new diet. I didn’t want people judging me and watching what I was eating. It was just gonna be my thing. I was soo good. The next weekend I had a holiday party to attend. I did not have a single drink and parked myself in front of the veggie tray. I ate everything but the carrots and the dip. Did you know carrots have a high sugar content as well as peas? I wasn’t going to risk it. I was miserable. Everybody else was getting to eat whatever they wanted and I was the fat ass eating veggies. By then I had known that life wasn’t fair. Everyone has different body types and I was just one of those people that couldn’t eat whatever I wanted and still be skinny. But I was determined and I started seeing results. By Feb people were noticing and asking if I was on a diet……and my response was, “No, this is a lifestyle change!” By May I was down to 124 lbs and I had decided I was never going on a diet again! This was going to be a lifestyle change that I was going to maintain for the rest of my life!
Fast forward 21 years........I am 25 lbs heavier than the heaviest I ever was back in 1995. What happened??? Well I was able to keep the weight off(+/- 10 lbs) for about 5 years by continuing to exercise. I wasn't strictly watching every single thing I ate...carrots and peas were back in the rotation as well as drinks and carbs, but the exercise really kept my weight in check. Lo and behold I stopped exercising and the weight slowly crept back up. Started dating a new guy.....we'll call that the "dating 20" (you know like the freshman 15)....and then it just kept going from there. I had talked a big talk about "the lifestyle change" and I didn't follow thru. I need to get that back b/c like I said..."life isn't fair."
Unfortunately I won't ever be able to eat anything I want to all the time and still be fit therefore I need to be realistic and to get the weight in check I will have to work hard at making the right choices. Which in my case will mean keeping a food journal and getting my butt in the gym 3-5 times a week. Sure I will have days where I overindulge a little, but then I need to get right back at it. My life is always filled with special occasions or dinners out, so I need to learn to be able to do these things and choose my food wisely and not view everything as, "oh but it's a special night" etc.
Join me next time when I'll talk about what my motivation/inspiration is!
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